things have been going well.
i really like my new job. its pretty fun.
i think for once in my life things are actually the way that i would wish for them to be. except my family. thats a bit shakey. but other than that. pretty amazing.
i cant believe this is my last year of HS. it seems like i was just a freshman at cy fair last year. jeeeez. ive made so many friends and gotten to know so many people but ill probably only talk to about 4 of them after i graduate. thats kinda sad. ive realized how much i need to depend on myself not on other people bc they arent gonna be there to help me when i need them to.
this summers been really good. probably the smoothest summer ive ever had. its literally consisted of hanging out with only mel, josh, zach, sarah, && erika. no joke. oh and mels entire family. =)
im scared to go to college. like im so excited to get out of the house, but im scared that once i do, im just gonna fail bc i have no sense of how to save money, or spend it wisely i guess. i know i wanna finish college. i wanna be the kids in the family that actually finish it without dropping out to pick it back up. im ready to spend my life with mel. my whole life. i wanna live with her bc even now it feels so wrong not sleeping in the same bed as her. ive gotten so used to rolling over and being able to hold her, to touch her, that i need that. if i dont have it, i dont feel safe. mel is the most important person in my life and she always will be. one of these days we're gonna get married and have a wonderful family. we'll be happy and we'll show you guys. we're gonna have the house we've always dreamed of and it'll be perfect. even if we dont have all of that, its still gonna be great bc im gonna have her. and she'll have me. forever.
at night when we are going to sleep we just lay there and the feeling of our bodies being so close is just amazing. that sounds really stupid but when we just lay there holding eachother i always feel so perfect, so happy, so.. safe. i love those moments when we just lay there and look at eachother. i love looking into her eyes. they're so captivating. its like when i look into thos deep brown eyes i see everything shes feeling and its like i can feel it. i dont know how to explain it but the feeling is incredible. i love touching her. shes absolutely perfect. i love everything about her. :)
eeek. i really miss her right now i wish shed hurry and finish her exam.
but yea. ive been to colorguard camps and i still have more to go to. and band camp. woot woot.
erika and i are the captains with adrianne as our lieutenant. im not sure how much i like that bc i dont think that shes ready, but whatever. i guess shes gotta learn. either way.
alright well, mel should be done with her exam pretty soon. so im gonna go.
i love you.
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down
Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me
Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face
How does it feel?
